Stuck in reverse

I have had a hard week. I guess I am just sick and tired of feeling - sick and tired and try as I might, I just can't seem to move far past the overwhelming grief of SIF and the deep loss I feel as a woman going through early menopause.

I posted this song - Fix You by Coldplay a few months back. It's where I feel I sit sometimes in this journey and it isn't where I want to be. The first few versus really ring true for me right now:

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...


Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...


Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

When I need a cry - like I do right now - this song gets me going everytime. I really feel stuck in reverse and seem to have no choice but to be here right now. But this song reassures me that I am just where I am.