Exercise is my saviour right now

The mood swings I've been experiencing for months are such a challenge to live with. It seems I can fall to a plummeting low even when I was feeling okay minutes/hours before. It is disconcerting that I don't have complete control over my emotional state right now.

I look at my life and see all the great things in it and think I could/should be happy but sometimes I'm not. That both upsets and worries me. It seems exercise is the only thing that can shift these moods. I was feeling like this yesterday afternoon then went and did a Bodyjam class last night and felt a whole heap better. The intro part of the class (a half hour session that breaks down all of the dance moves) wasn't on as the instructor was away so I went and did some weights. I felt heaps better doing that, even. It seems so long as I am moving my body physically in some fashion - be it walking, yoga/pilates, weights, or a cardio work-out; I feel much better.

There is no denying that my menopausal symptoms are increasing. I have hot flushes/flashes several times a day now and night sweats several times a night. I'm pretty sure being on Provera right now is only aggravating my mood swings/depression.

Sigh. I so look forward to this all getting sorted out. I just told my husband I think I'm going to have to go to the gym just about every day right now in an attempt to manage my mood swings. It is just awful feeling flat/depressed for what feels like no reason. I'm not consumed around the whole TTC deal anymore so it's not about that. I guess I've accepted things are where they are at and the most important thing of all is getting me sorted out.